Relationships????

God, the big mystery!

I have something I need to get of my chest, not quite sure what it is, or where this post is going (Exciting huh 😉 )

At my old school there were plenty of couples. There is one in particular, that comes to mind.
Let´s just call them Jane and Tarzan (I don’t know why)
Anyway, Jane and Tarzan were that kind of couple, that were always kissing and touching each other. In. The. Classroom. Come on guys, really?
Anyway(Just realized how often I write “Anyway”) Anyway, they were pretty cute, you know, when they didn’t  dry hump in front of you.
And I am gonna be honest, it did spark a little bit of jealousy, because they seemed really happy.

First of all, I have never been in a relationship before, nor have any of my friends, so I don’t know ANYTHING!!!!
This is just my perspective and what I see, it might be totally different for you and your girl/boyfriend, so please don’t get mad 🙂
Me and my friends have often discussed relationships, and there is often a lot of negativity involved.

But honestly, I can’t imagine myself in a relationship. I am not a big fan of romance.
Obviously not all romance, subtle things like holding hands, and catching the other person looking at you, stuff like that is adorable.
But here are my problems:

1. PDA

One thing I can’t stand is way too much public display of affection (Jane and Tarzan) big public gestures, flowers (who want’s flowers? Just wondering, honestly?)
Ohh yeah, and Facebook!
I hate it when people write those, “Love you babe, miss you Love,” I get that you have a boyfriend, but do you really have to shove it in my face?

But here is my first question, why do you do that?
Do you really have to stick you tongue down your girlfriends throat all the time? I can’t help but wonder if it is to mark your territory. And I get that, but that is my first problem. As great as it is to be somebody’s “special someone,” you are SOMEONES something, and that scares me. I don’t wanna be anybody’s anything.

2. Infidelity

I know it is kind of a cliche to be scared of, but I am. I watched so many people cheat, flirt and be inappropriate, people in relationships.
Also the jealousy, the “Who was that girl?” and the “Why is she talking to him?” Seems like unnecessary worry to me.

3. Commitment

Might seem weird, but the commitment scares me as much as infidelity. The responsibility you have to this person, that you like. What if you mess up, what if you get too drunk, too stupid? It seems like a big responsibility to me. You have to be with this person all the time, and make time for them.

4. Getting hurt!
This is probably the worst one. I am scared of opening up to someone,and then have my heart broken. I prefer being a little closed up, armored with sarcasm and shyness. Getting my heart broken scares the living shit out of me.

I realize that everything above seems really negative, and like “I don’t believe in love” and all that, but the truth is… I do.
Because everything up there can be kinda great.

1. Knowing that someone cares so much, that they don’t want to loose you.

2. If the person you are with really cares about you, cheating won’t even cross their mind.

3. You get to spend time with the person you love, not because you have to, but because you want to.

4. My mom once tolled me, “If you try you might get burned, but if you never try, you never get burned or get what you want.”

Basically what i am trying to say is, there are two sides to everything. Good and bad. What matters, is from what perspective you look at life, relationships and opportunities.

I choose the positive look on life, what about you?  ❤